as far as vaccines are considered, they scare the shit out of me

I never get a break because of no one wanting to watch my special needs daughter (they will watch my other two but nobody will take her) and I feel like I am nearing my breaking point. I just want an hour with my husband without the spawns but I feel like that will never happen so I cry a lot

my kids have worn out my mom name...thinking of changing it to something else lol