as far as vaccines are considered, they scare the shit out of me

i am ready for things to move forward in my life. i feel like things are stagnant.i need change

I never get a break because of no one wanting to watch my special needs daughter (they will watch my other two but nobody will take her) and I feel like I am nearing my breaking point. I just want an hour with my husband without the spawns but I feel like that will never happen so I cry a lot